To every thing there is a season , and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die ; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up which has been planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal ; a time to break down and a time to build up; A time to weep , and a time to laugh; a time to mourn , a time to dance ; a time to cast away stones , and a time to gather stones together ; a time to embrace , and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to get ,and a time to loose ; a time to keep , and a time to cast away; A time to rend, and a time to sew; A a time to keep silence , and a time to speak ; A time to love, and a time to hate ; a time of war , and a time of peace ;Ecclesiastes 3:1-9
He hath made everything beautiful in his time : also he hath set in the world in their heart , so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end .
This verse has spoken to my heart in volumes the past few days !!! In more than one way !!! the world around us is on the verge of change from the smallest of things we take for granted such as season changes ! It won't be long and the world around us will burst into color to show my heavenly Fathers creativity ! The air will become cooler day light will shorten ... times will change ! I am so ready for this ! Fall is my favorite season !!!
However it has made me ask some very serious questions to my self ! Are there things you need to change ? and the answer was yes and no !
I the light of loosing my nephew more like my little brother has made me stop to think ! Life isn't promised tomorrow ....
I would like to share first about the things I need to change ! First of all forgiveness ! We all are guilty of holding on to things we need to let go ! I have struggled with this my whole life ! loosing Josh made me realize that unforgiveness keeps us from enjoying our loved ones ! Josh and I were OK when he passed but there had been a time when we were not ! we both were guilty of holding on to things we should have let go from the beginning ! I am just glad we were OK before he left this world ! I did however make me think about something God forgave me ! I didn't deserve it but He forgave me ! Grace !!!! I am not saying you should continually place yourself in relationship with someone where your continually hurt ! I am saying though grant forgiveness !!! Cut the ties that bound you to hurt ! Forgive quickly ! life is to short to hold a grudge !
The next thing God showed me, was to be myself ! Be who he created me to be ! Not my Mom , sister , friend , movies star, or anything other than me !!! He created me to be fearfully and wonderfully made !!! I am not suppose to look or act like anyone but me !!! After dealing with a loved one who has serious body issues ! I realized that we live in a cruel society ! That thinks we should all look like barbie ! Not that there is anything wrong with barbie ... Yet realistically we are not suppose to look like her ! God didn't make me to be a size 2 .... I don't have perfect hair and I can't do things some people can ..... Yet He did make to look exactly the way I do ! I am am a confident attractive woman who loves her amazing husband , I have two beautiful girls from the inside out !!! I love to homeschool and spend time with them ! I can sew , create things out of nothing , I love kids ministry its my calling ! I love chickens ! tea parties ! spending countless hours playing with kids ! The list is endless ! God made me to be me !!! I should never look to the world to find beauty in myself and self love !!! I love who I am !!! I want my girls to do the same ! I find it sad that young people are wearing girdles to hold their stomachs in which there isn't a stomach to hold in ! They have eating disorders because someones idea of beauty is pushed on them ! When they are already beautiful they way they are!!! They don't need change to fit in !!! God made ME to STAND OUT !!!! I am thankful for that !!!
The next thing I want to share will be the last I share about change .... I think its important though .... Never be pretend to be what your not or try to live beyond your means just to fit in with someone else , or to be accepted ! You see if the only reason we want to be around some is because what they have to offer us ... We never truly loved them for who they are .... We shouldn't want to spend time with someone because we think they have money , or not be kind and not friend someone because they have less than you !!! Because you see if they don't love you or you don't love them for who they are! No matter what you have to offer they will always make you feel worse about yourself instead of lifting us up.... I have never really struggled with this but I want to make sure I never ever do !!! Because I have seen the devastation it leaves behind !!! It leaves you hopeless with no where to turn !!! Its a downward spiral that become quickly out of control !!!
When I started praying about these things God was showing me, I asked him what I needed to keep ! He showed me several things! He showed my never change the love I have for my home ! Never be sorry for putting them first ! He showed my it ok to say NO ! To cut things and people out of my life and my families life that are toxic , hurting us , or destroying us ! He showed to stay true to my style ! Its who I am it shows the creative person He made me !!!! He showed me not to change the never grow up attitude lol !!! i asked why I loved the reply ! I called you to reach kids ! I need you to think young ! Its ok to stand up for what's right ! stand my ground for Him ! Tell my story he brought me from it ! Just because people want to be ignorant I shouldn't be ashamed ! For He brought me through it I am saved by His wonderful Grace !
Change can both be easy and hard ! My life has been in change for months now !!! We are still trying to find a new normal ! To find a homeschool group of friends , To adjust to loss of someone so special ! To get used to dear best friends being far away ! Also being closer to family whether they are blood family or by choice !!! We are changing daily !!! I can say I am honestly thankful for it though !!! Because I have realized that with out change nothing would ever be born !!! I thankful for new adventures !!! I am blessed to set down and blog today ! I am blessed to be on the journey He called me to !!! he promises He will never leave me or forsake me !!! He walks with me ! Are you ready for the changes your facing ? Or the changes that may be coming your way !!! God will be right there embrace it ! Don't run from it ! Remember somethings are only for a season .... Others are forever ....
One day someone will have to write my obituary .... I want to make sure that its about the me God created me to be ! Not the me the world wanted me to be !
So I choose to embrace the change !