Friday, February 26, 2021

Because He Loves Me

Because he loves me....

I have to admit I don't like Valentine's Day at all. It is a reminder of pain not love.

I honestly could skip the whole month of February and be okay with it!

As  I thought of how many probably feels the very same way do! I spent some time talking to my Daddy about it. 

Most of us have a time in our life we don't like to go back and remember. January, February, and the beginning of August are mine. 

January is the anniversary of my sister passing, my biological dad was murdered in February and my nephew who took his life birthday is 2 days after the anniversary of dad, and my nephew took his life in August. As I rambled these anniversaries off to my heavenly Daddy, asking why did our human brains so often look back and remember tragedy? I often feel we look back on that more than the happy moments. As I prayed about it He reminded me those scars we bear from the tragic moments taught us many things. We remember them because they strengthened me in ways that are very hard to explain. 

I walked away from each event changed. I learned from all three life is short and we never know when the last moment you may have with someone. Always express to those that you love that you do love them! I learned not to hang on to bitterness, because the only person that is hurting is me. I also learned forgiveness isn't so much for the offender as it is to set me free. However hard it is to look back over the hard times I need to be reminded of those scars because they have helped me to be closer to my heavenly Daddy and made me a much stronger believer I Him. Because I always need Him to remind me that He's got the whole world including me in His hands and He will see me through each moment. 

If we didn't have hard moments we wouldn't appreciate the happy ones I don't believe.

All though I would have loved to skip the month of February because of the reminders it holds. It's still a month that represents love! No one loves me

 more than my Daddy loves me! So I choose to love Him back by loving in the hardest days and reminders.

I will take each reminder and scar it left behind and let it make me stronger. Also to allow me to share my testimony of God's goodness through such tragedy ! 

Because when we choose to look there can always be joy found even in the sadness!

Because He loves me! My amazing hubby got me the most beautiful roses! I always dry the flowers he gets me because I want to remember the occasion he got them! This year was extra special because I didn't expect them. 

We agreed that neither of us needed anything lol.



Still when he brought them in it was a reminder have loves me! He loves me and shows it in so many ways! It's not just words he says, it's the actions he shows. Just like my Daddy!

So as I continually learn to walk in the Footsteps of Grace. I want nothing more than to be able to show Grace on the hard days!

Thank you for allowing me to share my heart with you! Life can be sticky at times! I think we become stronger when we are willing to share it. He uses it touch other lives and change them too!

See you again soon!
Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~ 

 


 

Thursday, February 11, 2021

Health Update

I have not updated my health situation in awhile. I have found it is so much easier to do here so everyone who has been praying can get updated all at once!

It's a win win for you and me!

The infectious disease doctor was right. I would have a long recovery and it would take my body awhile to rebound. I am feeling some better in some areas and in others not so much and it has been a little frustrating.

My viral load in my system has stayed at 35 the last two blood draws. My infectious disease Dr was pleased that it came back in the lower range. Because my body has shown signs of the virus trying to rage again. 

I have been able to start my Lupus and inflammation medicines back! I can honestly say I did not know how much they helped until I could not have them! I will begin my biological meds back I hope next week.

Praying that will help reign in my Lupus so it will be mores controlled again.

I am still on 2 liters of oxygen. I am to start a biologic for my lungs. I am hoping that will help me to wean off the oxygen and no longer need it. If it doesn't that's okay too because I am thankful that I have these things to help make life easier!

My appetite has gotten better. However I am unable to eat meat. It causes so much pain to digest it is not worth the effort of trying to anymore. So I only eat veggies, seafood, eggs, and cheese. I have given up sugars! I feel much better eating clean. Some fish hurts to digest it nothing like chicken and things though! I have to get protein from somewhere.

My body thought it was malnourished so I have a lot of deficiencies. Anemia being one of them and albunine levels which is protein in the blood.

I have regained some of my energy! However I get tired fast especially if I am trying to do something very active.

I am still having to listen to my body when it says to rest. I need to rest or I will pay a higher price for not listening. 

I have had some arrhymiah issues with my heart. I wore a holter monitor for three days. I have virtual appointment on Friday to get the results. I also had a episode of afib. Jody had gotten me a I watch for Christmas so when I had chest episodes I could see what was happening. It also sends a record of it to my phone so I can share it with my doctor. I really love having it! It makes me feel a little more secure.

I seen a gastroenterologist today. I have continued to have issues with ulcerative colitis. I need someone who can treat that and get it under control. I still have a lot of stomach pain and tenderness in my lower right abdomen.  He wants to run some test. To see what is going on. One is some stool samples and in two weeks a colonoscopy. He said said he would like to see what is going on in the bowels now. So I will be Covid tested next week. I will have to go to the hospital to have the colonoscopy because I am on oxygen! I really really liked him! He is super nice. 

Like I said some things are better where others are not. I have already been warned the virus could come back and be bad again. Please help me pray that never happens!

I am planning to get the Covid vaccine when I can. So I can see some of my loved ones and friends. I will still have to be very precautious because the vaccine does not fight against the new strand! I have pretty much been told I would die If I took covid. So I have to be very careful!

I have been housebound except for doctor's visits since last March.

I miss my family and friends. With having such a low immunity I am prone to get germs anyways. Covid just makes things more complicated! My body has been through so much! It can not take another major blow right now.

I do stay busy helping watch Ambers boys when she works! I will say it a million times being Ganny is the best thing in the whole world! I love those boys so much! We are incredibly blessed.

When they are not here I enjoy crafting for my doll collection and taking pictures for my doll blog!

Please continue to still pray for me! I am nowhere near where I want to be physically. I am trusting my heavenly Daddy for His healing! He's not done with me yet! I am thankful for each morning I open my eyes!

I always want to continue to walk in His Footsteps of Grace!

Thank you for your prayers and taking time to stop in and get a update! I know your time is precious!

Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~

   

Thursday, February 4, 2021

Don't You Know Your Beautiful?

I love when Jesus brings something you have prayed about full circle! To me that is just part of His goodness!

I hope today's thoughts bless you and help you to look in the mirror and see yourself different!

I had a hard childhood! For most looking in would never believe the horrors that went on behind closed doors.

However the abuse I endured sent me on a potentially deadly spiral.

I thought it was the only way anyone would love me! I think I was 12 the first time I made myself go to the bathroom and throw my food up.

I have always been curvy even when I was at my lowest weight as a teen! I just remember looking in the mirror and seeing a 200lb person looking back at me! I could not have that, No one would love a fat girl and certainly not want to marry her one day!

So from that day forward I starved myself or would binge eat and throw up.It was very important to be small! Bless My Mommaw's heart I know she meant well!She would pat me on the stomach and tell me to suck my stomach in men didn't like big belly's!

I always heard that in the back of my mind, honestly sometimes I still do!

I remember when I was around 14 or 15 crop tops and bodysuits were the thing to wear with some short shorts!

I was determined I would be tiny enough to wear it and be thin as I did! 

I will never forget when I first started dating Jody we went on a date and we went to eat I refused to eat in front of him! Few weeks later he was at my house having dinner with my sister and I. They were picking and made a comment and I dropped my food off my fork. I heard them laughing I ran to the bathroom and threw up! I did not eat another item that day! Myself image issues lasted until we had our first daughter! 

I remember right after I had her we were in Walmart and it was the first of the year. My oldest was born late December. So you can imagine my thoughts of weighing 130lbs after giving birth! So while we are on our shopping trip. I thought it was really important to loose that 30lbs! I could not keep it and it could not wait! I bought this little work out outfit to wear.

I remember while Jody was at work the next morning I put it on I had all intentions I was going to start working out! I had a really difficult delivery and was in no shape to try to exercise,I was anemic and had double pneumonia.

So imagine how difficult it was to do 5 sit ups!

I couldn't I was so upset, I was crying and my sweet baby began to cry. I was on my way to change clothes. She sidetracked me and when I finally made it to the bedroom. She was in my arms! I had just made myself get rid of breakfast! I caught my image in the mirror as I was holding her! I instantly began to cry! WHAT was I doing! My body just created this beautiful baby! Was I going to teach her to hate herself too? After that moment it was like a switch went off in my head.

I finally learned to love the body that had been abused horribly. It was time to heal it and teach it to love what it saw!

I made a promise to myself and my girls I would raise them to love themselves and to rock their beautiful body that they live in each and everyday! 

You see God fearfully and wonderfully made each of us in His image. Did you catch that! It's highlighted go back and read it again! 

How can I not love or like something about the girl that he created to be in  His Image! Had all these years been calling my Daddy ugly? Telling Him he was imperfect when He is perfection! 

So I had made it my mission to really teach girls to love the body that God gave them and to have self worth! 

We have a girls club called A Life Of Faith and I really teach that there! Because none of us are made to be a carbon copy of one another! I am glad of  that. We would live in a boring world if we were!

I had kept that promise of loving myself! I have remained confident and not ashamed of the scars my body holds! Or ashamed of the stretch marks it has beside for me it was proof I had two beautiful girls! Carrying a life is the most amazing feeling ever! I had learned to rock my corkieness!  I have no problem to rock and Disney princess shirt and a tutu! I am 44 yes old and I am still very young at heart! I will rock a wheelchair, cane, walker, even oxygen if need be! 

For it was just a part of who I am now! There was no need to be ashamed!

Over the past 5 years I have faced many challenges! 

One challenge was going to try everything I had taught myself over the years! 

It was becoming scary!

One of those being weight! I have been the biggest I have ever been!!! Guess what the switch got hit in the wrong direction! About July or August I think. I fell in my bedroom on night and hurt my leg. I needed my walker again until I could put weight on my leg again! It also caused my wonderful husband to believe I needed to have my bathroom door removed again because I can not get the walker in the bathroom easily when it on. I was so mad, when he took it down. For the first time I was kinda mad! I was going backwards. I am getting worse!  

   I am not getting better and look at me! I remember telling Jody in the bathroom one night as I was doing my best to not look at myself in the mirror. I was so sorry for how disgusting I looked and cried when I sat down on my shower chair!
He reassured me as he always does I am beautiful!

I couldn't hear his words though! All I could hear was the old words! Ugly, fat, disgusting, unlovable, sickening, and wanting to binge eat and throw up! 

Thank Jesus! My thorachotomy area hurts so badly it changed my mind about throwing up!

Instead everyday I beat myself up mentally! I hated who I had become! Each time I would put something on that no longer fit! I would cringe inside! For years I had told my girls it's just a size and it's never a true number because no two people sew the same! No two seamstress is going to take the exact amount off of the fabric even if they are sewing the same shirt! Not to let that number bother you! Dress in a size that is comfortable and do not worry about that number!

Boy did I ever let my new number break my heart into thousands of little pieces! 

I am so ashamed that I allowed satan so much space in my head! I knew better ! However I had let him take up residence and he was having a field day.

Back in the summer I would make comments and Christian would get into me and remind me it wasn't my fault it was a lot of fluid and I had to remember all the steroids I had to have for my lungs. I would smile and agree. Yet by bedtime I began to bash myself again. I began asking God was He mad at me? He knew how I felt about being really big and now I was the biggest I had ever been! 

In November I had to be hospitalized twice! The second time I was so sick there were a couple of times during both stays I thought my Daddy was going to take me home to Him! I was really really sick!

Probably the sickest I have ever been! I have had two major heart surgeries and a major lung surgery! This illness trumped that!

My Daddy took some time to minister to His daughter. He came to me just where I was. He confirmed through so many people His love for me! I think the night that got me was I was watching one of my favorite TLC shows my 600 lb life. I remember the tears streaming down my cheeks and I had already been talking to Daddy we talk all day long but we had really been talking. I told Him I didn't care about how I looked I just knew I wasn't done here for Him! I had so many things I wanted to do still! I also wanted to see Christian get married and have a family continue to watch Amber and Andrews family grow and blossom! Being Granny is one of the biggest blessings ever! He told me that night my size would never change how I ministered for Him! I did however had to change how I seen myself when I looked in the mirror! The next time I stood in front of the mirror I needed to remind myself the same things I had taught my girls and my kids from another Momma! I feel so  blessed their Momma shares them with me! Here's the thing I know they are gonna read this and I want them to know I did just what my Daddy told me to! I was brushing my teeth and was talking to myself in my head! I reminded myself of all of God's promises and how I am fearfully and wonderfully made in His image! He thinks I am beautiful! He loved me and all the parts I don't sometimes! A nurse flew in my room asked me if I was okay! I was like yeah I am just brushing my teeth! Is everything okay? I was like yeah I am just brushing my teeth why? She said well your heart rate is 200 sweetie! Would you mind getting back in bed and try to stay there!

When I got home I really had to continue to work on my mindset because I truly wanted to love every inch of this crazy body of mine it is super important to me! I can truly write and say! I am in the best place loving my body that I have ever been! I love me and my numbers! I also love me enough to that in the hospital I made a promise to Jody and myself I was going to clean my diet up and take care of the body God blessed me with! I have done just that! We are eating clean as a family and it feels amazing! More than the food helping it's that I  showed myself the Grace it deserves and loved myself how my Daddy told me too! It's the best feeling in the world to love yourself as you should! I can't wait to be able to start A Life of Faith back and continue to teach young girls to love the body they live in!

I know this is a long post! Please stay with me though! I asked a few very near and dear to my heart people to share their stories with you so they can help raise awareness of self love and their journey to get where they are today! Because truth be told this is something that needs to be talked about more! Not swept up under the rug! Most of the time people who struggle with weight have been through a trauma and have stuffed it away and haven't dealt with it and use food for comfort or punish themselves.

It's okay to talk about the hard stuff! It's okay to share your struggling to love yourself! Ladies we are like beautiful butterfly!We go through many changes but still come out beautiful and uniquely you!

I love you curves, the scars and stretch marks I bare, I love my curls and the fact they stay up in a bun, I love the healthy choices I am making for me, I love the numbers all of them! Because they are just that numbers! It doesn't change the beauty that God placed in me when He created me! Beauty comes from the inside out! He loves His unique daughter He created in His image! I love her too! Let me introduce you to my friends !

Meet Christian

Beauty comes in many forms, many shapes, sizes, heights, edges. We’re all different, and unique in our own way. It took me a long time to see that, even though I was taught growing up we’re all uniquely made and sculpted by God, that we are all perfect in his sight. I haven’t always seen that, I haven’t always felt confident or beautiful. When I used to look in the mirror I saw a girl whose hair wasn’t straight but was a frizzy ball of fiery girls. I don’t have a jaw line but a super round face, I wasn’t skinny I had curves for days, my thighs touch and have cellulite, my arms are not firm and they kinda flap when I move them, I’m a shorty who had a small growth spurt but still climbs on counters to get things or ladders, I have freckles all over, that dust my body like stars dust the universe, and my eyes aren’t this bright beautiful color they’re simply brown, big brown eyes that look like honey in the sun light.  I let society, and what others said about me, poison my thoughts about myself to the point I started starving myself so I could fit into societies “beauty norms” I would look at myself and only see hatred, I could barley even look at myself in the mirror without being disgusted, and it wasn’t until about two years ago when the way I viewed myself changed. Every body is like poetry, we are all created differently, we all have our own story, none of our ink melts into the paper the same way others do. We all have our own spots, scars, and blemishes, not everyone’s souls are the same, we all have been through different things that touched us differently, that molded us into someone different. We all have our own unique shells that bind us together making us who we are from skin and bone. Our bodies are our temples, and none of them are just alike, they are not copied portraits. They are their own original masterpiece, that is constantly changing and molding everyday. I am beautiful just as I am, I am exactly how God wants me to be, he molded me, he sculpted me with his own two hands. The God who made the stars, oceans, mountains, and butterflies, he made me. He made the things I love and adore, so why am I any less? Why am I this disgusting, hideous creature, if he created me just as unique and with my own unique thumb print, just like a butterfly who has their own unique wing pattern? I don’t look away in disgust anymore when I look at myself in the mirror, instead I look at myself even on my worst days when I feel less than beautiful I look at myself and tell myself I’m beautiful with all my flaws that are perfectly imperfect. God made me just how I am and that’s enough for me, even if it isn’t to anyone else I love who I am and I love my body and the stories it has told. You are fearfully and wonderfully no matter what you have been told, no matter what that person told you or made you feel, no matter what society has told you. You are perfect every inch of you, head to toe, inside and out! You are absolutely beautiful! A masterpiece! And don’t ever let anyone tell you different.   


Meet Lexy

Self love is something I am still learning, I actually struggle with loving myself still, because of things that I have gone through in life that has damaged me, things that have caused me to gain weight or things that make me look at myself differently, bit I have definitely improved, I have learned to embrace my brokeness, because those are things that God has brought me through and continues to bring me through. God made all of us fearfully and wonderfully made! Self love is something that some may not think is important but it is, and I do my best everyday to love every inch of myself inside and out! It shouldn't matter if we don't like the number on the scale, or if we don't think a piece of clothing fits how we like or think it should, because no matter what we all are beautiful, we all have worth in this crazy world, and we all are enough!!! We all are created in God's image, so love yourself, everything about you is beautiful. I hear and see so many people bring each other down, when we should be lifting each other up, so love yourself so hard as well as each other! Never forget that God makes no mistakes everyone is priceless and beautiful!!! 

Now I'm gonna go look at myself in the mirror and tell myself that I am beautiful and enough, and God made me who I am for a reason! you should do the same because it's true! 😍💕

Meet Aspyn
Self love is a touchy subject for most people because of what they have gone through or what they are going through and I am here to tell you I have struggled with loving myself too wether it was comparing myself to people or looking in the mirror telling myself I wasn’t good enough there was always something that I put into my head that made me feel like I wasn’t worth it or I wasn’t good enough  (that was the devil spreading lies) but I always did that and it made me feel like a terrible person like I didn’t belong anywhere and then one day I was reading a bible verse that is psalm 139:14 and it says “I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made” and that opened up a whole new perspective for me because in that moment I was like you know what Aspyn you are fearfully and wonderfully made and God makes no mistakes with creating you! Don’t compare yourself and don’t look in the mirror telling lies to yourself because your worth isn’t found in what you tell yourself your worth is found in Christ and Christ alone and I will tell you that many times I have felt like I was unloveable because I looked this type of way or I didn’t fit in society’s terms of “beautiful” but now I tell you that my identity is not found In society my identity is found in God


Meet Kendra
The eating disorder I took pills to lose weight laxatives drank nothing but water would eat one meal a day if  I had to I tried not to eat at all. We went to the gym some I would cry when I went to get dressed because I thought I was fat. That's what I seen myself as in the mirror. It didnt matter what anyone told me either I seen myself as fat even though I was very very skinny.
Today though is a different story. I have gained more weight than I could ever possibly imagine or want to due to my mobility. I used to think you had to be beautiful on the outside but boy have I learned differently. God has taught me some many things over the last few years and that is one of them. Beautiful comes from within. If your not beautiful on the inside the it doesn't matter what you look like on the outside!!! I can be just as beautiful heavier as I was skinnier. It all in the way you carry yourself. And along with saying that God made us ALL fearfully and wonderfully made. That doesn't come with a " label"  it doesn't matter you shape or size,color,hair type,if your short or tall how much you weigh.. ..it simply means we are ALL beautiful in Gods eyes. 

Meet Payton
Everyone deserves to love themselves.
I feel we all struggle at some point with body image and how we feel when we look into a mirror, it’s a hard battle to fight. Even after we’ve began to grow a love for how God created us to be, we all still have hard days where we just can’t see how truly beautiful and amazing we are. It helps when you tell yourself positive things or affirmations when looking into the mirror, because what we tell ourselves is what we tend to believe, so if you say or think negatively of yourself, that’s how you’ll feel, positivity is so important in the journey of finding and loving yourself. Try and remember how beautiful, loved, and cared for you are! 

Each person has stepped out of their comfort zones to share apart of their story with you! Because like me we want you to see your worth, your beauty, to see yourself as our Daddy sees us! Fearfully and Wonderfully made and He love us so much He gave up His son!

So How can we look over such an amazing verse and not apply it to our lives each and everyday! We need give ourselves the affirmation we need! Don't depend on getting it from someone else! Because people are not perfect and will let us down! God is perfect and if your struggling on finding that worth ask Him! He will give you what you need! Because after all We are Beautiful! Remember beauty always starts on the inside and it works it's way out! 

So what do you need to tell yourself today? I hope you tell yourself your beautiful! If this has touched you and you feel like someone's story connected with you! Email me at lilgranny76@gmail.com

I know myself would be more than happy to help you! I feel sure the others would too! After all we want to see you walking in Footsteps of Grace! Knowing you are fearfully and wonderfully made!

Psalm 139:13-14

Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~

Don't You Know Your Beautiful? Just The Way You ARE!

Thursday, January 28, 2021

When Do You Praise

 

Goodness I do believe we have all have just about been to the end of our witts with Covid.

For some of us you have went right on with life as if it is not there or effecting your life.

Others live with light restrictions they go on doing everyday life and just wear a mask. To go out to do the things you love to do.

Then you have people like me who can not be out in the world. You live with in the walls of your home and do not go out. Unless it's for a doctor's appointment or blood work. I have some one I love and could never thank enough for loving me enough to go out and take care of the things we need! My husband rocks!

I miss my people! Guys I have not been to the store since March 2020! I haven't seen my Momma since the day before Thanksgiving! 

I can't remember the last time I seen my sissy! 

I haven't had tea with my bestie and her sweet daughter since March! 

The biggest thing I miss church! I miss ministry!I need to see my little people!!!

I really need to see some people! I don't need to hug anyone all though it would be amazing! I just need to be able to fellowship with those I love! I know we have facetime and phone calls. It's not the same though! I need the real life interaction.

I could not help but to think of the times in the Bible when people were in isolation as well. The one that my mind kept going back to was Job.

He lost everything and ended up isolated setting on a pile of ashes.

I really thought about those ashes today. It made me wonder if why he was setting there in his mind those ashes represented all he had lost to him. His family, his lands, his riches, and those who he thought was his friends.

It really hit home for me.I am not sure if it is because the reason I am quarantining so hard core is because I have been really sick! 

Still sick or not anytime you become isolated and setting on your ashes you really start to analyze the things that are in your life.

The things you place your energy into and those you pour your love into.

It makes you realize quite quickly those who are truly in and those are just fly by nighters.

You know the ones who are there whether your in a pandemic or living what we used to call normal.

How many times have you checked on that person who's neck you hugged and told you would always be there for them?

When is the last time you when seen on social media someone you know so well and considered family and knew that they had gone through great loss! All you could do was like a Facebook post not  even send a private message or make a phone call to make sure that person you over was okay and didn't need anything. All because you feel your life is so busy and that was the best you could do so all you did was kept scrolling.

How many times have we seen someone ask for help or say they needed something we kept scrolling and ignored it! Even made the comment in our minds they should be doing better yada yada yada... What if our Daddy placed it that there for us to be His hands and feet!

How many of us say we will pray and we never even stop to do it, we have gotten in such a habit of typing it but not doing it!

The bad news is we are guilty! The Good news is Jesus loves us and He is so willing to help us be better! He just really wants us to ask Him to help us be centered on Him! 
When we are centered on Him we won't need to think twice to be His mouth, His hands, and His feet! 

The Bible tells me in Job 1:21 The Lord Giveth and the Lord taketh away, Blessed be the name of the Lord.

I really thought and meditated on that verse and thought about Job!

God took so much from Job and he never got mad! He never walked away from his Daddy! He didn't care what anyone else thought he didn't care if you didn't stick around. if you didn't pray for him even!

Yet He loved His Daddy so very much! God gave him back 10times what he lost!

I got so excited when I thought about that because if my Daddy would do that for Job! Would He not do that for me! I truly believe He is going to ease this isolation soon! He is going to redeem the time with those I love and have made sure to continue to be apart of my life during this trying time! I prayed that for when I dropped the ball and may have been a fly by night friend! He would give me the opportunity to redeem myself. I don't want to be a fly by nighter! I want to be all my Daddy has called me to do!
As long as I am in isolation and missing my people and tired of the circumstances! I refuse to be mad at my Daddy! Instead I choose to learn what I can during this time that helps me to be better for Him! After all how can we learn to walk in Footsteps of Grace if we stop following the Creator of Grace! 

Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~  

Thursday, January 21, 2021

Make It So




I have been thinking alot about dreams...

I have been thinking about how I know God placed them in my heart. I also have been thinking about the excuses as well. We all make them... We tell ourselves things like:

I am not beautiful enough

I am not healthy enough

I am not strong enough

I hate my body

I attract negativity

I don't ever have opportunity 

I attract hate 

I am not a people person

I am not confident

I will never be successful

I am not worthy of blessings on my life.

So let's be really honest with ourselves for a moment. How many of us has told ourselves these things whether in our head or while we are looking in the mirror.

I can be honest enough to to say I am guilty of most all of those things at different times.

When we talk to ourselves like that. We are tearing down the very things God does not see in us! See before I go through the list of beautiful things He sees in us. I want t0 share something with you! This year makes five years when my health nightmare began. At first you dream it will get better for reality sets in! 

I remember when to first began I thought about the dreams God gave were still reachable. I am not sure when it changed though. I told myself that there was not capable of reaching those dreams anymore. I have more days that I am not able to do what I call my normal day. I allowed that to creep in my mind and tell me I was incapable of doing the things placed in my heart dreams! I realized my dreams had changed as I got older!

It seems my Jesus knew already the changes I was gonna face! The change that was going to alter my whole existence! Yet teach me to look at life in such a beautiful way as this journey progressed! You see my dreams changed and I realize now they changed because He Knew what I didn't know! Yet these dreams were more reachable for the new Shellie! She just needed to have a new perspective of herself! 

I needed to be reminded I am fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of my Daddy! I have what it takes to make it happen!
I needed to straighten my crown and get ready to put those dreams into action! Because girls we all are these things:

We are Beautiful

We are healthy even if we are making changes to get there or trusting in a miracle! Life and death are in the tongue!
We are strong
We love our body! You only have believe the truth! God thinks it's perfect!

We attract positivity

We attract opportunity

We attract love

We are loved

We are Kind

We are smart

We are confident

We are successful

We are worthy of all the BLESSINGS coming our way!!!

Because you are the Daughter of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords!

We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength!

So I am no sure what dream your holding onto! God placed it there and if He placed it there He will bring it to pass! You just have to have the confidence to believe you can! So if you need to write those affirmations on a piece of paper and place them in your bathroom so you can see it every morning! So you can tell yourself those things! It's a proven fact what we tell ourselves it is what we believe!
You can also undo all the negative when we begin to believe the positive!
Ladie's join me in changing your life and stop chasing your dreams and let's start bringing them to pass! If I hadn't you wouldn't be reading my blog! I am thankful for the dream of writing! It is one of my passions for sure! 
I can't thank you enough for taking time out of your day to spend some time with me! 
I am praying for you always!
Prayerfully Yours, ~Shellie~

    


 

Thursday, January 14, 2021

Intentional



The past few months has taught me to slow down and cherish the simple things of life. 

Like the glow of Christmas lights on a tree that still standing decorated in the living room. 

The sound of my husband's voice when he speaks to me but even more when he prays over me!

The sound of Christians giggle when she gets tickled and her laughter fills the air.

The phone call from Amber to just let me know they are okay! 

I can hear my sweet guys in the background!
The morning spent facetiming so I can see their sweet faces! 

Andrew letting me know everyone is okay! Just because he loves me! 

My Moms sweet voice one the phone each day! 

A phone call or text from my bestie just to check on me! brightens my whole day that out of her busy life she had time to check on me!

Today I thought about all of those sweet things things! A smile crossed my my face! I feel so blessed by so many things!

It did make me wonder if my Daddy is the same way about us! When we include Him in each and every aspect of our lives! Not just the moments I need Him to fix me!

I knew the answer was yes! It makes me want to be more intentional to make Him smile and be proud of me! 

I want to know when I start my morning off with quiet time with Him He is smiling because I made Him priority! 

I want Him to smile when a praise and worship song is a stuck in my head and I hum it in praise toward Him and it was Thursday! I didn't need a special day to do it on! 

I want to know He smiles when I just babble off my head to Him like He is a old friend and it's just things I need to tell Him something that is on my heart! Nothing is wrong I just want to share it with Him! He smiles because I know He wants to talk to me all day everyday! It doesn't have to be some big formal prayer! He loved me and He just wants me to include Him in everything I do!

 I want to be sure I am! Life will become busy again one day! Covid numbers will go down and life will resume some form of normalcy once again. 

I have been praying because one thing I don't want to loose is the enjoyment in the simple things. Especially getting so busy that I leave my Daddy out on the sideline! He deserves front and center attention! I also don't want to lose the simplicity of it just being us! Family is so important to me! I feel that way more now than ever!   

The past year has truly taught me to treasure each moment. It don't even have to be a dressed up celebration! It can be a quiet evening watching movies together! Riding in the car and my sweet man telling me I look beautiful and I don't have a stitch of makeup on! Life is made up of moments! Each one are truly meant to treasured! My devotion this morning lines up with this perfectly! It talked about not storing up wordly treasures! We often need to purge our hearts and lives of things that don't need to take up space there! We need to keep the most important things! God, Love, the Word of God for sure, family and friendship, faith, peace, hope, service to others! These are essentials for our lives. We have heard so much about essentials this past year! So why don't we pledge to start this year off with these essentials! Throw out anything in our hearts that doesn't pour into what makes my Daddy smile and makes others see Jesus in me because I am keeping those amazing essentials priority! 

God's Word actually tells us to do just that in 
Luke 12:32-33 

“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33 Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys.

Thank you for allowing me to share my heart! I feel incredibly blessed each time I log on here and Jesus helps me to share my heart! I still really can not thank you enough for taking time out of your day to share it with me! 

 I hope you know that I m praying for you each and every day! I pray your new year has been filled with blessings and continues to be as we go forward! I can't wait to live intentional with you!

                                  Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~ 


Wednesday, January 6, 2021

New Year Beginning's


 

It's officially a new year! Every new year comes with new hopes for the new year will be better than the one we just closed out! 

Most of us make resolutions to try to improve who we are as a whole or the surroundings around us!

I have decided this year will be a year of change for me! I did not make any resolutions at all. Not even a goal list. For the very reason every day is a new day and it brings different things to the plate each and every morning! 

I have prayed and decided to take each day and let God guide me to what I need to do and with that change in me the things that He wants to change and help me to see what it is and help me to make myself healthier and a stronger vessel for Him! 

I did however choose a word for my New Year! I chose Hope! Hope for health and stronger relationship with God! I want to write and complete a book this year! 

However over my hopes and dreams I want these hopes to be filled with Him! In the very center of it all!

Over the course of 2020 I faced and fought many battles! Most of these battles were around my health! Lupus already made me a Target of Covid because I took immune suppressants. So from March on I was in my house and not going out unless it was an appointment we could not have virtual! I was hospitalized several times. For several reasons! I will be totally honest each time took it's tole on me. in more than one way! 

For me that is why it's so important to take each day as it comes and deal with what it offers with the word I have chosen for 2021 HOPE!

The definition of Hope is:  a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain things to happen. A feeling of trust.A want of something to happen or be the case.

I certainly can tell you that Hope is what I feel for 2021!A healthier year, to have more time using my creativity God blessed me with, I hope to be able to spend time with family that I have not been able to see by summer, I want to see God show up and do big things in this girls life! I have a deep hope as we open our eyes each and every day that Jesus will show up and show out and use each and everyone of us to our  fullest for His glory! I want to see His church and ministry grow and be able to reach the world like never before for him! 

So as I close out my first thoughts of 2021! I pray that your year is filled with Hope! Have you chosen a word for 2021? If you have share it with me in the comments below! I would love to pray for you this year! I would love to pray that God be with you each and everyday this new year brings! That we can all be a light for Him in a dark unknown times! No matter what the world throws at us! He's not surprised and still there for us each and everyday! 

Thank you for stopping by and sharing a part of your day with me! Time is a precious gift and that you shared some of your with me means more than you could ever know! 

I am praying you have a wonderful week and weekend ahead of you! I pray that each day is filled with blessings and hope! 

Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~