Friday, July 31, 2020

It's Me Again Daddy



Have you felt like that when you begin to talk to your Daddy (God), He feels like oh my word it's Shellie again. 
I know He doesn't, But the fleshly side of me feels that way and often keeps me from going to Him immediately!

The sad thing is it is actually the enemy's way of putting distance between you and the one who loves you the most.

During my battle with Lupus in the beginning before we had a name for what was going on. I truly felt this way! I felt like my prayers  were just hitting the ceiling.
When we give into that thinking. We label ourselves as unloved and unworthy of the prayer we need answered and heard. 
There is good news though , even though I labeled myself and think He is ignoring me! He isn't and the only label He has for me is daughter and loved!
I find myself thinking that He isn't ever going to answer my prayer. 
Satan tried to use these moments to try to keep me from clinging to God's promises in His Word.If he can distract me from the truth. He can weaken my relationship. I would like to say I have never given into those tricks. I would be lying if I did though. It's easy to fall into that trap when we are wallering in self pity, poor pitiful me, I am not loved trap.
When we do fall into that we forget that our Daddy's time and answers are not on my timing but His! 
We literally prayed for a year for a name for all the crazy my body was going through! 2 major heart surgeries, major lung surgery, lung damage,  on again off again fluid on the heart, weird rashes, fevers, and body aches. This was my new life and I wanted nothing more than to be healed. To feel like I did before all of this! I was during this time I would start a prayer off with It's me again Daddy, Shellie! I don't mean to aggravate you but ....
Now I can laugh about it! Then I could not... I really thought maybe I was getting on His nerves and therefore He was ignoring me. Kinda like I would ignore my girls when they were toddlers and had temper tantrums for no good reason.
Now I know it just wasn't His timing yet and He answered and well it wasn't the answer I prayed for. I prayed for complete healing for life to return to the way it was before I fell and hurt my knee.
His answer was no and we got a name for the crazy!
As the quote below states I am not a halfway believe God can kinda faith! I am either all in or where did I put my faith?
 I sometimes have to remind myself where my faith is and where it should be.
We are all in limbo with something. Whether it is our health, our finances, school situations, friendships, relationships, our kids, marriages. This list could go on.
This virus has presented us with lots of obstacles. Where are we placing our faith at even though we may feel He isn't answering! I am not sure if you have noticed though. He has answered prayers that you at have forgotten about praying. You felt like it's me Daddy .... 
How many of us prayed for more quality family time! Time to be at home so you can focus on what it needs. Time to just rest. Time to work on that hobby you never had time for again. Maybe you needed extra time with your hubby! Now you have all of these things. God heard our prayers we have these things! So if you are praying for something now and you feel like your aggravating our Daddy. He's not aggravated or ignoring you. He is waiting on His perfect timing to answer!
He's waiting for the perfect time for His child. Don't take His silence for a time to fall away. Rather use it as a time to get much closer. Because whatever His answer is whether it be yes or no your gonna need Him to guide you.
I never thought the answer would be no and I would get a name for all the crazy instead. I would trade a life like most people's that is not even close to anything I could ever imagine. Still I would never change and minute of it,  but I would have changed some of how I waited for it!
King David while writing the Psalms called out to God many times to let things change. Time and Time again Gods answer wasn't what he thought would be! He lived in a cave with his army for months before He was announced as  King! He didn't go straight from being a Shepherd to being a KING all at once there was a process and making of Gods man.
God is making each of us who He needs you to be! He is priming you to do what He created you to do! He have you a story to tell and He is preparing you to tell it. He's preparing your to mentor that friend you see struggling. He wants to take you to high places. You have to be willing to accept his answer of yes or no!

I can't thank you enough for choosing to stop buy and spend some time with me! Time is precious and a gift I don't take lightly! I pray you and your family have a safe and beautiful weekend!
Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~



Friday, July 17, 2020

Don't Be Afraid



There are so many unknowns in the world today. It can make us often feel like we are living in darkness trapped unable to see.
So many distractions and new normals. 
We may feel that we drowning when we actually should be reaching toward the light itself!
We become so caught up with what we hear is happening and we become fearful and forget who's we are.
God is not shocked nor surprised by what our country's state.
I do wonder if He is surprised or happy with our reactions and how we are handling the challenges before us! 
For each home how we chose face the new normal caused by something that could devastate our very families! 
I know that some believe that the virus is no that serious. Others are making sure they social distance. wear mask, and don't have large gatherings! 
Others are going on with life as if nothing ever happened.
We all miss what the old normal was! I know I miss being able to see my family and friends without having to worry about getting sick or someone getting me sick!
For me I was social distancing before it was cool! Lupus makes sure of that especially during the flu season!
Now it's all the time... I hate having to not let my Momma come as much as she would like to! But I would be devastated if she were to this virus! 
I am not scared by no means! God did not give me a spirit of fear! 
 I do however respect the fact it is real and it is very dangerous! I was recently told of a story of a mom who gave birth that had the virus. Her 5 day old baby contracted the virus and died! This was in my home state where I live not far from me! I can not imagine the devastation and heartbreak they must feel.
I know as we all move forward in the months to come. We will face some hard decisions! What will I decide to do about my child's schooling. What looks best for my family.
What are the upcoming holidays going to look like for families?
Will our churches be safe to open back and what will our separate ministries look like?
Will we be able to have children's church and let them have a feel of fun and normalcy while they are there?
I don't know what the answer to these questions are honestly.
I do know this that my Daddy is for me and He is for you! If we seek Him in all we do! I know I can not go wrong with Him! 
I can tell you if my girls were still little or my grandbabies were old enough to be in school.I would choose homeschool and lobby for it for my grands. The reason why is because we don't know enough about this virus to be sure of anything.I would want to protect my kids. I also think about the other students and families involved and the staff. I just don't know if it's safe to go back into the classroom just yet.
I say those things from my Momma heart!
I also whole heartily that my family not be out just living life like there is no concerns! Only going out for essentials all other shopping has been done online! We try to make smart choices and try to be careful in our everyday life! I am just concerned about my family. As I am about yours!
I am not sure what the holidays hold but I sure hope that we can be together! Spending holidays with my parents are so important! 
At the same time I want us to be together and it be safe to do so! I miss my Mom and Sister! Our family is growing and I want nothing more for it to be safe place for us to all be and healthy!  
I hope our churches can open up safely soon. However I don't want anything that endangers those I love! So if outdoor service is what we need to do! I am good with that and if we end back up going into virtual services I am okay with that as well! Whatever we need to do till it's safe to do more!
I have been social distancing since before it was cool lol! Lupus made that happen for me! I have no immune system! So my body can not fight off what a normal persons can! So mask is a must for me and my family!
I have had several hospital stays but none like this last one! I could not have visitors and  Jody could not stay with me!
This was so hard for me! He's my rock and I always feel best when he is with me! I was there for my pericarditis! I could not imagine being there for Corona as scary as it is!
Not having no one there to hold your hand when your scared and reassure you and pray with you!
I am not sure what's next....
I do know that Satan would love for this to make us angry and question my Daddy!
Instead I plan to keep myself focused on the giver of light.
Knowing that no matter what comes next He's going take care of me and my loved ones!
No matter the normal! God is good and still on the throne! 
During this time I wanna draw close to Him and learn what it is He is trying to teach. I wanna be intentional about my family and loved ones and keep them healthy and let them know just how loved they are!
I hope to load some fun homeschool project ideas! 
That you may want to do with your kids !
As I close out our time out! I do want you to know I am here! If you need any help with homeschool or need to me to pray with you specifically about anything! I would love to help you with that! You can email 
I'm praying for each of you! Hope each of you have a wonderful rest of your week! I can't thank you enough for sharing part of your day with me! I don't take your time for granted! 
Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie


 

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Normalcy What Is That !?!



I have felt this way everyday this week! It's been a long hard week! Not just for me but my family as well. All though there is so many things I am so very thankful for. I have realized it's okay to have a bad day along the way as well to just want to  have some normalcy.
Then I have to ask myself what does normalcy even look like! I had to giggle! Because I am not sure if I truly even know!

Still I think about our world and the state of panic we seem to be in and think the only way there is ever going to be normalcy or peace again is when we turn to the one who can give it to us! 
We have to want it bad enough to go to our Daddy for it, My heart feels He is waiting for the ones who don't normally seek him out to do so and ask for it! Ask him to heal our land and our people!
I have been thinking back on you childhood this week! My sisters and I would play Barbies and babies for hours when we were young. We would set up elaborate houses and pretend to visit one another and go shopping. Everything seemed so right with the world! I miss those days of simplicity and not needing to really know all the grown up stuff  of the world !
We reacted in our play what we learned at home. If we were playing house we treated our babies the way were and the same life scenario with our barbies.
I wonder if I was looking in what I may learn today when kids play?
I know this time has been just as hard for them as it has been for the adults. 
I hear of some of my sweet kiddo's from church upset because they don't understand why they can not see their friends and loved ones.
So I was trying to come up with something I could do maybe make someone smile during this time! My heart always seems to be happiest when I can serve someone else! I was thinking why not do maybe a 7 day acts of kindness,
Now I know what your thinking... Money is tight right now I can't afford to buy gifts for people right now. You don't have to spend hardly anything if you choose to! Or you can set a small budget to use! It is all up to you!
You send a card to someone just to brighten their day! If you have little ones let them make the card for you! Whoever receives it will love it all the more! Bak
e some cookies and share 1/2 the batch with a neighbor! Pay for someone's morning coffee! Have rose bushes cut a bouquet for a friend and deliver them to her door. The list can be made up of so many things.
If you have little ones they can get involved as well!
As we approach celebrating Independence Day! The beginning of our countries many freedoms! How else can we bring sunshine to someone else?
How else can I pay it forward as so many before me has! 
Happiness begins when we serve others with a thankful heart! Not a grumbly one. 
When we truly do something because we want to bless someone else.
How can I reach my grandchildren and your children to love the country they live in teach them to love those who live in it no matter what color or what makes them different!
So do you wanna join in with me? 
I am kind excited to be able to make someone smile!
The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 9:6-8
Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
I don't know about you but I just love it when my Daddy is proud of me! Even more than that when He feels like he can bless me!
Remember if you go out this holiday weekend! Wear your make and social distance stay healthy and well!
I guess I will get out of the bed lol and redeem the evening till bedtime comes !:)

As always thank you for sharing your time with me! I don't take that gift lightly! I hope you have an amazing weekend and week ahead!
Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~ 

Monday, June 22, 2020

In The Middle Of The Mess



Oh my... Time has truly gotten away from me! I have missed several weeks of blogging. Mainly because I just have not felt well.

As much as I love pouring my heart out. Often doing the simplest of tasks wear me out and make me feel extremely drained. Then the enemy likes to sneak in and make me feel guilty for not pushing through and taking care of me.

However I am learning my Daddy wants me to take care of me! I am not of any good use to Him drained and unable focus. Sometimes it's during these down times when I have the most growth and healing through Him! Because I am able to focus on just Him and not my to do list! I am learning that my to do list can often take me  away from what He has for me! Like talking to a friend who needs encouragement rather than mopping. Spending extra time in His Word rather than cleaning the house! My list could go on forever. I don't feel it needs to though! You get the point. I am so happy that I have learned that my home doesn't have to be spotless for someone to feel welcome! It's okay not to put my makeup on because I am going somewhere, my hubby thinks I am beautiful with or without! After all Daddy may use me to help someone else have the courage to do the same! I am not created perfect. Perfectionism is a joy killer. It gives us the false impression that if I don't seem like I have it all together. Nope is going to want to come around or appreciate me. However I must say that I respect the woman who is real and has crumbs on her counter from lunch probably more than the woman with an immaculate home! Especially if you have lil people! 

The reason why is because it proves to me she is more worried about spending time with her guest than worrying about the perfection of her home!

God wants us to know it's okay not to have it all together. He loves us even when we are a hot mess and well put together queen.

I played on the floor with my grandbaby last night with a basin of water and bath toys. we stripped down into his diaper. He had a blast right there on a towel on my floor making a wet splashy mess. It hit me why I didn't do those simple things with my own girls? I wish I had! I wish I had allowed them to splash water all over my floor! However I can remember messes that spilled into every room playing Barbies, house with dolls, restaurant and doctor for hours and sometimes days at a time.

Those are some of my favorite memories with my girls! Even in this time of separation as we try to go forward to find our way back to visiting in person. It's okay not to have it all together. We can still minister to one another in friendship even if we do not have it all together! I am sure glad my Daddy loves me even when I don't have it all together.

It's okay to take a step back and take care of me! After all I am not no good for myself or any other if I don't give my best yes or no !

Before leaving you this afternoon I want to share some very exciting news! My oldest daughter had her gender reveal on Saturday! We are so very excited to announce we are expecting a little boy this November!

We could not be more excited ! Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing a part of your day with me today! 

Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~



Tuesday, June 2, 2020

It's Time To Listen


I wasn't sure if this was what I should do or not! After much prayer I know it is what my Daddy wants for sure.
I am a huge history girl! I love to know how things came about and why it came about the way it did. What was the cause and effects of each act in history and how is it still affecting us today,
In the light of the recent events of the loss of a man who was someones son, brother, father, friend, and someone fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of my Daddy. Another life taken for no rhyme or reason,
I wonder when my Daddy is looking down on His throne how much more His heart breaks for His children.
I know my heart truly breaks for my brother's and sisters of Christ who skin color is brown and not white. All through history they have been ridiculed as they strive to have the very same rights that my family has. They do not know the same peace my family feels when they leave their homes because through generations the stigma that they themselves are bad for the color of their skin. These families worry when they allow their children to go outside and play will they be safe? Because if something were to go wrong and they are in the cross fires they will be the ones who will take the blame and the outcome may cost their life. We often look at cultures we don't understand and form an opinion off of the things others think rather than seeking out what God says.
It's so easy to get swept up and think this is not my problem. Yet that is the problem we have been quiet to long, Setting on the side lines and walking quietly by not reaching across the borders and bridging the gap. By listening and trying to understand the frustration of the people who feel that they have to go to extreme circumstances to be heard, For the world to stop and listen to their fears. Fears that I can't say I truly understand because I am on the outside looking in! Yet here I am, I am listening, I want to hear you.
I can not imagine the generational fears passed down for the black community, If you truly study history you will see that any man that has ever been in legal authority over them has been a tyrant of sorts. Their ancestors endured horrific circumstances. Beatings, separation from their families, living with not even basic essentials, and this list could go on for a really long time. 
Separated and made to feel less than what God made them to be.
I taught my girls we don't judge a person by the color of their skin! That person is just the same as you no matter the color! They were raised in a home that taught the truth of history not leaving out the truth of the matter of slavery, We had long discussions on what we would have done to tried to have change it if that would have been when God chose us to be born,I would have been abolitionist. I would have fought for their freedom and rights then just as I will today.
We need to set across the table from one another and talk and share our fears! We need to close the gap of separation not see color and see a person God created and loves as much as me! 
He wants to heal the wounds from past and prevent wounds of the future. There should not be separation of my family from theirs! They should feel just as safe coming to my neighborhood as I should to go through theirs!   
They should not fear the blue light that is meant to protect them unless like myself have done something to fear it! Their children should never be scared to ask a officer or myself  for help. They should not feel that I think my race is inferior to theirs! Because my dear friends it's not! I bleed the same color as they do. My heart hurts as theirs does! I can not undo what my ancestors did! I can however change how now and future generations act and treat people! They deserve the same opportunities my family has had with out fear, Because neither of us are inferior to the other! We are all created by the same loving God who Is a Jew by the way not a white man!
When He looks at us all He sees is the beautiful children He created and they are all good! Not one of them better than the other! All beautiful  and equal. So know I Shellie, I see you, I hear you,I am learning, I will be educating, because your lives matter and the violence must stop so we can heal our children and make a better world for them to live in that is safe and equal!
So my prayer for our nation, our world, our families, and for each other! Let's stop ignoring the issue! Let's give it's voice in a peaceful nonviolent way! Let's set down with one another and bridge the gap with kindness, prayer, and most of all love! 

After all your all my brother's and sisters! No matter your color!
It's time for true healing to begin!
Thank you for sharing apart of your day with me! It means a lot that you chose to!
I am praying for you and your family this week! Stay safe and well!
Prayerfully Yours,
~Shellie~
Just Remember We Are ALL Stronger Together!

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Lesson Learned Straight From Gods Little Girl

                      

Oh the excited sound of little voices! 

They truly have  no care in the world.

Do you know why? They know in most 

cases they are protected and cared for 

by their parents! No matter what is going

on in the world! They keep going on and

chose to be happy and be themselves!

 Why as adults can we not chose that

same happiness? Depending on our Daddy! 

Knowing no matter what He is gonna take 

care of us!

   

This afternoon my fb messenger phone rang.

I had to let my daughter answer it for me because

I have laryngitis again! 

Insert long sigh here… lol

 Christian put the call on speaker and the little 

person on the other side talked excitedly 

as she told me about her day! 

She gave the exciting news of some loose teeth. 

How cool it is to play house with your cousin.

 I listened with such a happy heart because, 

I miss my little people so much!  


 As I listened I talked to my Daddy about it. 

He spoke to my heart and reminded me He is 

doing the same for me and all His kiddo's. 

We just have to let Him.

We have to silence our own minds enough 

that He has more control than the 

world could ever!

 

I have to choose to let Him! 

Then He whispered imagine how much 

happier you would be if you allowed me to 

do this for you every day! 

Imagine how you would sound 

on the phone with your bestie if we allowed 

Him to do that!  

How much kinder we would be to those

 around us!
How much easier we would handle the 

new normal because we are 

aware of He is in control! 

  

We shouldn't live in fear! We actually 

face each day with joy! 

Umm let's face it we are human

 and that is hard.

The fleshly side of us tends to creep up 

and get the upper 

hand often before I am even aware. 

However I want that no fear of what

 today holds attitude.


 I was reminded of averse that  comes from 

Nehemiah 8:10 

"Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is

 your strength."

 I truly wonder what would happen if 

I prayed that each and every morning 

before my feet hit the floor and I can 

still have that He's  got this attitude before

 real life and I collided!  

If I choose joy no matter what my perspective 

about life would truly change! 

I told my Daddy after the call ended. 

I wanted to choose that bubbly joy. 

I want my attitude to reflect Him.

I want to be happy no matter what comes 

my way!

Kind of like that kid on Christmas morning 

joy!

 Because I should truly be that Happy 

because He gives me

a different gift each day ! I  have to choose

 to be happy

and excited for whatever is unpackaged. 

After all He already 

knows! 

  So as I close and I am already thanking 

Him joyfully for my

blanket, pillow, and book I have been reading. 

Today is a perfect lupus girls choice to snuggle

up and not move! 

You know what He knew I needed it! So I am thanking Him for it.

 I am thanking Him more for the joyful sweet 

6 year old girl 

who called my facebook messenger this afternoon! 

She reminded

me of a lesson I have taught many times before.

 Joy comes from 

the Lord I have to be the one who chooses it.

 It's an easy choice to make! 

    I hope you have an amazing week ahead!

 I can't wait to share

some of the amazing recipes using strawberries

 this amazing May!

Thank you for sharing part of your day with me today! 

                           Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie



Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Letting God Change Our Hearts



Oh wow what a ride the past two weeks have been!

Lupus has been having a ball messing with

one thing after another.

I am overwhelmed with thankfulness this morning.

All though I still don’t feel well!

The outpouring of prayer for me this week

for an important test.

Touched my heart and I know

my Daddy heard each one because

both came back negative.

As I type this blog this morning

I am prepping for a kidney ultrasound.

I am not worried about the outcome

because my Daddy has already got it.

Oftentimes we get so caught up in the

what if and we don’t exercise our faith.

I know that situations can be scary.

Corona is a good example of that.

As I was praying this morning when

I woke up for the morning.

I was telling my Daddy all about how

I just needed a time of rest.

I needed a break from feeling so bad.

I have slept more these past two weeks than

I have in a long while. 

Don’t take me wrong

I like to sleep just not all day

and all night too lol. 

I wasn’t expecting the answer

He gave me though!

We often learn more in times of

pain and times of silence!

He has definitely shown me so many

things over the past few weeks.

I would really like to share some of it with you!


Cause I have learned if what I have gone through

can help one person it is all worth it!

Slowing down is a must,

even as our world opens back up.

We all need to remember the importance of

spending time with our family,

the ones inside our walls.

I say that because our kids get

older we get so busy trying to make sure

we have checked everything off our list.

That we forget how important the ones we

spend our everyday life are to us!

They are gifts to be treasured.

Especially remember this if you have older kids

who do not need our attention or help to do things.

We can get so caught up we

neglect them for everything else.

Leaving them to feel as if their

importance has vanished.

At the same time if you have littles

carve time out of your day to

spend time playing with them.

I know that sounds like a lot to ask for

but when you look back

when they are grown you

will thank yourself you did.

Especially when they set around

talking about childhood memories.

Her children arise and call her blessed;

her husband also,

and he praises her: Proverbs 31:28

I think it is safe to say Mommas we all want to hear

our kids say what Proverbs 31:28 says.

We all are called to ministry in some fashion or form.

You don’t have to be a pastor’s wife or

Children's ministry Administrator

to say you are in a ministry.

Because of being a pastor’s wife

I often wear many hats.

Depending on the moment.

The Ministry has looked so different through

the stay at home order.

We haven't been meeting inside the church walls.

We have been having virtual church.

Virtual children’s ministry as well.

We didn’t stop pouring into each other just

because we can’t meet physically.

However this stay at home order

has changed the way

I will minister moving forward.

I have learned a simple text

can brighten someone's day.

Even a short phone call.

These things are things

I want to continue moving forward

because they are important.

Ministry isn’t always

preaching and teaching.

It's listening to the spirit when laying someone

on your heart and praying for that person.

He laid on your heart.

You don’t have to always know the problem!

Our Daddy already knows the answer to that!

Guys the church is as strong as

the people who make it!

The closer the family the

stronger the church.

Daddy has shown me in the

weeks of being sick.

I can not do anything but rest and sleep.

This time is not in vain!

Because I spend more time

praying for others during this time!

Goodness as much as

I really don’t like these periods

when lupus is working over time!


It's worth it if it means it may

change or help someone else.

Matthew 21:22 And whatever you ask in prayer,

you will receive, if you have faith.”

Oh my this one crawled up in the bed and

preached its own sermon to me!

Selfcare! It's so important to take care of me!

For you take care of you!

That entails something different

for all of us.

For me though it is different everyday.

It's okay if

I need to take a nap rather than

answer a phone call.

I need to remind myself daily that my worth

is not found on a scale. I

it is found in what God says about me!

I am fearfully and wonderfully made in

the image of my Daddy! He says I am beautiful!


I have really had a hard time lately

with my weight gain.

I need to lose weight. However

I take prednisone daily!

So it’s like no matter how

hard I try it feels like.

I am hitting my head up

against the wall.

My worth is not found in the size of

my clothes either!

I have however found if on

the days that I feel horrible

and I know that I am gonna sleep a lot.

It only makes sense to wear

my pajamas all day.

On days that I feel okay for me.

I find I feel better if I put light makeup on 

and get dressed. I won’t lie.

I feel prettiest when

I am wearing a dress or a skirt.

Now my husband prefers me in pants.

Yet after I told him how for me

I feel prettiest in

a dress or skirt because,

I just find something so feminine about a dress.

He now loves it when I wear a dress or skirt.

If you are like me and struggle with these things.

Please find what makes you feel pretty and do it.

I teach our girls downstairs to

love the body they are in!

God created that body in His image and when

I say I hate or don’t like it.

I am telling God He’s ugly.

I make a point to tell them they are

beautiful no matter how small or big we are.

God wanted us to be exactly how turned out.

Beauty is not found in our size.

It’s also not found on the outward appearance.

It’s also based on our inward appearance.

A sweet disposition goes much further

than a better than you air of disposition.

We need to have a Christ like attitude and

He should shine through

us no matter what we are doing.

Trust me you can be one of the

prettiest women on the planet

and have a nasty attitude.

That can make you the ugliest person.

You can be the plainest girl in the room

and you have a sweet disposition.

She can outshine anyone in the room.

We also don’t have A,B, & C showing to

make yourself attractive.

All we need to remember each

and everyday is what 

Psalm 139:14 says….

I praise you because I am fearfully and 

wonderfully made;    

your works are wonderful,I know that full well. 


 One  more thing, tell yourself you are beautiful.

Because what we tell ourselves we believe!

 He has shown me that all though

I miss everyone like crazy.

I really missed seeing my

Mom on Mother’s day!

That saying no to protect myself is okay. 

I have to be intune with this insane body of mine.

When it is already off kilter. I need to be more

protective, especially now.

I have lupus, for whatever reason ,

God has not chosen to take it from me.

So I have to trust His plan for it.

After all the Bible has taught me;

Romans 10:17 

So faith comes from hearing,

and hearing through the word of Christ.

I have complete faith that He has a plan!

Lastly as I reflected …

 I am gonna do the things I love more!

I love the 1800’s!

I love the process of their cooking skills then!

I love the way they dressed and how they made

What they had most of it by hand and what they

had they were satisfied with. 

When we lived in the mountains 

I sewed lots of doll dresses

in that time period.

Baked and made more

desserts from scratch.

I had a tea party once a week with a friend.

I read more and I loved

making homemade butter!

I have already begun doing

some of these things again. 

I want to get back to doing

all of them again.

That version of me was content

and happy with herself.

This version of me wants her and who

Jesus has created her to be.

I also want to do some other things

God has laid on my heart as well.

I know that I am not who I once was.

I am a better version of me because

I am depending on Jesus even more.

But because I was afraid if I allowed myself

to be that girl no one would like me.

I have learned so much about loving myself

and being thankful for me!

The Bible has taught me it’s okay to look out for me!

Even if I have to say no sometimes.

It teaches me that here!

I love God's Word

Philippians 2:2, ESV:

"complete my joy by being of the same mind,

having the same love,

being in full accord and of one mind."

You know as things begin to change again.

I know for sure we will have another new normal! 

I hope you cling to the things you have come to love!

Let go of the things God has told you to let go of. 

  All though quarantine will not completely

end for me.

In some ways I live a life of quarantine. 

To keep me healthy I will have to be

extra extra careful.

I will miss the extra time with my hubby!

He’s not always in the same room where

I am but he is here.

I love that feeling of him being home. 

I know a lot of people have hated this time.

I would almost bet if I was a betting woman.

That we all will look back on this time

and miss something from it.

I know this was a longer post.

I really just wanted to share my heart.

If you have time please lift me up in prayer!

My lupus has decided to act up and do weird stuff.

Even more so, I has a bad asthma attack this morning.

I have a horrible wheeze. I have lost my voice.

The last time this happened

I had a 4 day hospital stay.

I don’t want to repeat that or

another round of steroids if possible!

Also remember to tell yourself

you're beautiful and love who

you have been created to be!


As always, thank you for taking time to stop by

and share a part of your day with me!

Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~