Sorry For my Absence....

So sorry for the absence... Some times life catches up to us and its all we can do to tread water, to stay a float.

That is most definitly how I have felt the last few weeks.

After attempting to step off of one of my anti inflammatory medicines for my heart. My health has been in a tail spin it feels like.

I slept propped up on 4 pillows for 7 days, its taken 14 days for the fluid to go away and the chest pain to go away with it.

Then out of the blue I have been plagued with head aches, mouth ulcers, nausea, dizziness, and fever. My rheumatologist reply was it sounds like lupus but your blood work is normal please continue to document these flares and keep me updated.

Saturday evening I won myself a trip to the ER! They did check my heart and lungs and said every thing looked good ! Praise the Lord deemed everything as a nasty virus. Till last night when my blood pressure dropped to 87/70. Today its ridiculously high including my pulse.

This journey has been a long and hard road. It began over a year ago... I was hoping by now we would have figured out why I have a few good days then 2 weeks of feeling awful.

Its hard to be strong sometimes when your so very tired. I  am so thankful for a Savior who promises to never leave or forsake you! I know He will strengthen this body and carry me through... His word promises that! He also knows the plans He has for me!

I find myself missing the simplicity of just getting into the car and driving myself to the grocery store. since I haven't driven since September....

I miss caring for my home as I once did... I miss sewing for hours with out extreme pain afterwards... I know that God isn't finished with my story.

But please if you will lift me up in prayers. I so want to feel whole again. I want to be able to do the things God has called me to do! Even the simplest of things such a writing!

It brings my heart such joy just to be able to share with you guys glimpse of our life.

I claim Mark 5:34 For my life....

He said to her, "Daughter your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."

I will leave you guys with the lyrics of one of my favorite songs! Its helped me through many long and hard days...

"I am healed by the word of God, I am healed by the Word Of God, Yes Its all ready done just waiting for my change to come ! Yes I am healed by the Word of God!