Oh wow what a ride the past two weeks have been!
Lupus has been having a ball messing with
one thing after another.
I am overwhelmed with thankfulness this morning.
All though I still don’t feel well!
The outpouring of prayer for me this week
for an important test.
Touched my heart and I know
my Daddy heard each one because
both came back negative.
As I type this blog this morning
I am prepping for a kidney ultrasound.
I am not worried about the outcome
because my Daddy has already got it.
Oftentimes we get so caught up in the
what if and we don’t exercise our faith.
I know that situations can be scary.
Corona is a good example of that.
As I was praying this morning when
I woke up for the morning.
I was telling my Daddy all about how
I just needed a time of rest.
I needed a break from feeling so bad.
I have slept more these past two weeks than
I have in a long while.
Don’t take me wrong
I like to sleep just not all day
and all night too lol.
I wasn’t expecting the answer
He gave me though!
We often learn more in times of
pain and times of silence!
He has definitely shown me so many
things over the past few weeks.
I would really like to share some of it with you!
Cause I have learned if what I have gone through
can help one person it is all worth it!
Slowing down is a must,
even as our world opens back up.
We all need to remember the importance of
spending time with our family,
the ones inside our walls.
I say that because our kids get
older we get so busy trying to make sure
we have checked everything off our list.
That we forget how important the ones we
spend our everyday life are to us!
They are gifts to be treasured.
Especially remember this if you have older kids
who do not need our attention or help to do things.
We can get so caught up we
neglect them for everything else.
Leaving them to feel as if their
importance has vanished.
At the same time if you have littles
carve time out of your day to
spend time playing with them.
I know that sounds like a lot to ask for
but when you look back
when they are grown you
will thank yourself you did.
Especially when they set around
talking about childhood memories.
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also,
and he praises her: Proverbs 31:28
I think it is safe to say Mommas we all want to hear
our kids say what Proverbs 31:28 says.
We all are called to ministry in some fashion or form.
You don’t have to be a pastor’s wife or
Children's ministry Administrator
to say you are in a ministry.
Because of being a pastor’s wife
I often wear many hats.
Depending on the moment.
The Ministry has looked so different through
the stay at home order.
We haven't been meeting inside the church walls.
We have been having virtual church.
Virtual children’s ministry as well.
We didn’t stop pouring into each other just
because we can’t meet physically.
However this stay at home order
has changed the way
I will minister moving forward.
I have learned a simple text
can brighten someone's day.
Even a short phone call.
These things are things
I want to continue moving forward
because they are important.
Ministry isn’t always
preaching and teaching.
It's listening to the spirit when laying someone
on your heart and praying for that person.
He laid on your heart.
You don’t have to always know the problem!
Our Daddy already knows the answer to that!
Guys the church is as strong as
the people who make it!
The closer the family the
stronger the church.
Daddy has shown me in the
weeks of being sick.
I can not do anything but rest and sleep.
This time is not in vain!
Because I spend more time
praying for others during this time!
Goodness as much as
I really don’t like these periods
when lupus is working over time!
It's worth it if it means it may
change or help someone else.
Matthew 21:22 And whatever you ask in prayer,
you will receive, if you have faith.”
Oh my this one crawled up in the bed and
preached its own sermon to me!
Selfcare! It's so important to take care of me!
For you take care of you!
That entails something different
for all of us.
For me though it is different everyday.
It's okay if
I need to take a nap rather than
answer a phone call.
I need to remind myself daily that my worth
is not found on a scale. I
it is found in what God says about me!
I am fearfully and wonderfully made in
the image of my Daddy! He says I am beautiful!
I have really had a hard time lately
with my weight gain.
I need to lose weight. However
I take prednisone daily!
So it’s like no matter how
hard I try it feels like.
I am hitting my head up
against the wall.
My worth is not found in the size of
my clothes either!
I have however found if on
the days that I feel horrible
and I know that I am gonna sleep a lot.
It only makes sense to wear
my pajamas all day.
On days that I feel okay for me.
I find I feel better if I put light makeup on
and get dressed. I won’t lie.
I feel prettiest when
I am wearing a dress or a skirt.
Now my husband prefers me in pants.
Yet after I told him how for me
I feel prettiest in
a dress or skirt because,
I just find something so feminine about a dress.
He now loves it when I wear a dress or skirt.
If you are like me and struggle with these things.
Please find what makes you feel pretty and do it.
I teach our girls downstairs to
love the body they are in!
God created that body in His image and when
I say I hate or don’t like it.
I am telling God He’s ugly.
I make a point to tell them they are
beautiful no matter how small or big we are.
God wanted us to be exactly how turned out.
Beauty is not found in our size.
It’s also not found on the outward appearance.
It’s also based on our inward appearance.
A sweet disposition goes much further
than a better than you air of disposition.
We need to have a Christ like attitude and
He should shine through
us no matter what we are doing.
Trust me you can be one of the
prettiest women on the planet
and have a nasty attitude.
That can make you the ugliest person.
You can be the plainest girl in the room
and you have a sweet disposition.
She can outshine anyone in the room.
We also don’t have A,B, & C showing to
make yourself attractive.
All we need to remember each
and everyday is what
Psalm 139:14 says….
I praise you because I am fearfully and
your works are wonderful,I know that full well.
One more thing, tell yourself you are beautiful.
Because what we tell ourselves we believe!
He has shown me that all though
I miss everyone like crazy.
I really missed seeing my
Mom on Mother’s day!
That saying no to protect myself is okay.
I have to be intune with this insane body of mine.
When it is already off kilter. I need to be more
protective, especially now.
I have lupus, for whatever reason ,
God has not chosen to take it from me.
So I have to trust His plan for it.
After all the Bible has taught me;
So faith comes from hearing,
and hearing through the word of Christ.
I have complete faith that He has a plan!
Lastly as I reflected …
I am gonna do the things I love more!
I love the 1800’s!
I love the process of their cooking skills then!
I love the way they dressed and how they made
What they had most of it by hand and what they
had they were satisfied with.
When we lived in the mountains
I sewed lots of doll dresses
in that time period.
Baked and made more
desserts from scratch.
I had a tea party once a week with a friend.
I read more and I loved
making homemade butter!
I have already begun doing
some of these things again.
I want to get back to doing
all of them again.
That version of me was content
and happy with herself.
This version of me wants her and who
Jesus has created her to be.
I also want to do some other things
God has laid on my heart as well.
I know that I am not who I once was.
I am a better version of me because
I am depending on Jesus even more.
But because I was afraid if I allowed myself
to be that girl no one would like me.
I have learned so much about loving myself
and being thankful for me!
The Bible has taught me it’s okay to look out for me!
Even if I have to say no sometimes.
It teaches me that here!
I love God's Word
Philippians 2:2, ESV:
"complete my joy by being of the same mind,
having the same love,
being in full accord and of one mind."
You know as things begin to change again.
I know for sure we will have another new normal!
I hope you cling to the things you have come to love!
Let go of the things God has told you to let go of.
All though quarantine will not completely
end for me.
In some ways I live a life of quarantine.
To keep me healthy I will have to be
extra extra careful.
I will miss the extra time with my hubby!
He’s not always in the same room where
I am but he is here.
I love that feeling of him being home.
I know a lot of people have hated this time.
I would almost bet if I was a betting woman.
That we all will look back on this time
and miss something from it.
I know this was a longer post.
I really just wanted to share my heart.
If you have time please lift me up in prayer!
My lupus has decided to act up and do weird stuff.
Even more so, I has a bad asthma attack this morning.
I have a horrible wheeze. I have lost my voice.
The last time this happened
I had a 4 day hospital stay.
I don’t want to repeat that or
another round of steroids if possible!
Also remember to tell yourself
you're beautiful and love who
you have been created to be!
As always, thank you for taking time to stop by
and share a part of your day with me!
Prayerfully Yours ~Shellie~